Yesterday I asked some pretty intrusive questions. My intentions were not meant to be accusatory, but enlightening. My desire was to enlighten you to the fact that you are not alone in your questions that run your mind. There are more of us out there that tend to WAY over analyze situations, things, and people because of our over analyzing of self. We can over analyze so much so that when we work the questions out, we ultimately end up hunkered over in our thinking of our complete failures. We start out frustrated at the driver next to us then we are upset that we got upset. Wondering why they even frustrated us in the first place. It is as if every thought ends up with the statement that we are never going to get this thing right. However, the Lord has so graciously given us insight into how to extinguish these kinds of questions that dictate so many of our thoughts. It is called acceptance, peace, trusting God with where we are at in life, as well as the power to NEVER GIVE UP with the gift of grace. No matter how exhausted we are in our thinking, if we will never give up in hating the things that we do that we do not want to do or know we should not do, He is faithful to deliver us from them. WHEN He delivers us is entirely up to Him because there is so much beauty to be gained when we have to get back up.
The inward and outward distractions of other people and ourselves can rob us of our joy. Is there a time of reflection…absolutely! Search our hearts O’ Lord. Reveal in us what is not pleasing to you. However, I do believe that we can be so hard on ourselves that we miss the gift of grace. It is not intended to beat us over the head until submission. Rather repentance is intended to help us forgive, receive forgiveness, and then try, try again.
I love what C.S. Lewis wrote in His book Mere Christianity. He says, “After each failure, ask forgiveness, pick yourself up, and try again. Very often what God first helps us towards is not the virtue itself but just this power of always trying again. For however important chastity (or courage, or truthfulness, or any other virtue) may be, this process trains us in habits of the soul which are more important still. It cures our illusions about ourselves and teaches us to depend on God. We learn, on the one hand, that we cannot trust ourselves even in our best moments, and, on the other, that we need not despair even in our worst, for our failures are forgiven. The only fatal thing is to sit down content with anything less than perfection.”
Now don’t let that last sentence trip you like it would me. It doesn’t say that you have to be perfect. It just says we should not accept anything less, which means in other words….you will never be perfect but never give up in trying.
So reader, I pray today you feel a little lighter in knowing you are not along in your criticism of self and others. However, do not be dictated by the questions. Instead extinguish them with God’s acceptance, His peace, and His grace. Trust Him with where you are at because He is faithful to complete the good works He has started in us. Find rest and know that it is well with your soul. You have the creator of heaven and earth going before and behind you. If He is for us, then who can be against us so never give up in trying again. NEVER.
A sister in Christ