13When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their OWN evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after desire had conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.
I don’t know about you, but when this verse became evident and really resonated in my spirit, I was extremely overwhelmed with sorrow. See, after I first experienced this genuine longing and love for knowing Jesus more intimately, God revealed several areas in my life that He did not approve of, and for whatever reason, I had it in my mind that everything my old self did…all these nasty areas of sin in my life…would somehow disappear. My distorted view of reality really believed that God would make it all just go away immediately. However, several trials and TONS of tears later proved this theory to be false. Oh how our brother Paul got these moments right when he wrote so beautifully in Romans 7:13-25 about this war that wages within us to do what is good.
So, here I was a big ball of emotion, sitting in the midst of this revelation, when I finally discovered that what I should have been pondering was, and still is, what are my desires that are giving birth to sin? OOOOOOOOWWWWEEEEE, this side of reality was, and still can be, EXTREMELY difficult for me to receive. At first, I wanted to stomp my foot with arms crossed as I shook my head and told the Holy Spirit He was wrong!!! It was not me, wonderfully and fearfully made ole Samantha. I am too precious in God’s sight…. Do you hear this as you read it? I mean, in my mind, He was just going to make things all better. PRAISE GOD for wisdom and knowledge and mercy and grace!!!! AMEN!
Oh how comical and immature it sounds typed out, but fact of the matter is…until we fully surrender ALL areas of our life and humbly admit our inability to accomplish ANYTHING a part from Him and all He makes available to us through His word and Holy Spirit, we are faced with the truth that some of our actions still say this very same thing. Instead of stomping of our feet and thinking He is going to take it all away, we must meditate and reflect on His Word after prayer and repentance. We must taste and see that the Lord is good, Psalm 34:8.
We ask God…what is this ungodly desire that has conceived and given birth to sin and death? Reflect…are our trials producing maturity and endurance, or are they producing the same outcome of resentment, anger, jealousy, greed, gossip, drunkenness, adultery, idolatry, witchcraft or the need for control, etc.? What are we mourning and grieving?
On a more JOYFUL note, we should also ask God what godly desires has He so graciously afforded us to instead give birth to joy and life? What are the desires that can turn our mourning into dancing? OH HALLELUIAH! Then finally, we must ask Him for wisdom. For wisdom is knowledge in action. It is obedience sourced from discernment that God almighty will so generously provide without fault if we just ask without doubt (James 1:5-6).
So I now ask you…what do you desire?
Thank you for every eye that sees this, and every heart that receives this. May it be seen and received in love. I praise you for Your Holy Spirit! For it is You alone that is good within us. All honor and praise and glory be to You my ABBA Father! With so much love and gratitude I get to ask in Jesus’ name, Amen.